Positive thinking.

I've been working really hard on thinking positive lately. I helps that Scott is a positive thinker. He always makes me see the brighter side of things. I wish I was more like that. We've done a lot of talking lately and I think he's beginning to make a believer out of me. He's really enjoying it and I love that. I want him to be happy.

Things have gotten better at home, I think. It's been nice having Mom come up to help me get Jonah to school in the mornings. I still have to get up at 4am so that I can be ready by 5, drop Sarah off at daycare by 6, and be at work by 7. It's exhausting. This is my long week. So, I've worked all weekend. 12 hours both days. Now, I have to work every day this week. I'm not off again until next Saturday. 7 days straight is tough. By Wednesday I'm forcing myself to get up in the mornings and thinking of reasons to call in to work and then talking myself out of doing it. My new positive attitude tells me that it's not so bad because soon I'll be able to go part time. Just having one less day to have to do this routine will be so much better.

On another subject...I called the YMCA the other day to find out when swim team starts and to let Brian, the instructor, know that Jonah was wanting to be on the team again. He then informs that there will be no swim team this year due to lack of funds for the program. FIGURES! So, I had already told Jonah that he didn't have to play ball this year if he didn't want to as long as did swim. As hard as it was for me to tell him that (because we all know how much I love baseball season) I had to. I knew it would be hard to juggle a hectic baseball schedule with Scott not being here. He's always an assistant coach. He takes Jonah to practice, works with him, is there for EVERY game, and wouldn't miss it for anything. This year would be completely opposite. Scott won't be able to help coach and would miss almost every game. I knew that would be hard on Jonah. He loves having Scott there with him. Ok, so back to the matter at hand. I tell Jonah that there is no swim team this year and he immediately says "Can I play baseball then?" I couldn't tell him no. I had already told him that he had to do something to keep him active and baseball and swim team are his 2 loves. So, with the swim team not being an option he naturally wants to play ball. I told him he could play. The whole time we were talking about it I was thinking about how difficult it's going to be for me to get him to all practices, pick Sarah up from daycare, get baths, cook and eat dinner, do homework, and have everybody in the bed at a descent hour all by myself. It stresses me out thinking about it. But, I will not let my kids be affected by this. I have to show them that we can do it. I will have him at every practice and the only games I will miss will be every other Saturday when I'm working, which hopefully my work schedule won't interfere with my weekends too much longer. My Mom will be here some to help out and my Mother-in law will gladly help me on the Saturdays that I work. So, for the next 6 months I'll be at the ball park almost every day. I'm secretly excited!!!!! I love to watch him play ball!